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morning time is when it hurts the worst, waking upalone, staring at a silent phone. it would hurt to know, you feel the same way, as i do- but i hate to know you dont. and i know, if this emptiness is called love, i dont
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[Tuesday,
August 23rd, 05] |
i know i havnet posted in here in sooo long.. but no one reads this so i thought i could possibly spill my gutsss. my perfect summer ended perfectly. just being with all of my friends made everything so worthwhile. ill miss all of the stupid fights, the things i learned and will never forget, the friendships i made, the nights staying up til god knows when doing god knows what, laying under the stars out west, falling asleep to the sounds of nature, falling in love with relient k, RE falling in love with every single one of my million best friends, trips to california that drove me crazy, staying at a beautiful resort in arizona, shopping til i literally bent the credit card from swiping it so much, eating a million packets of koala yummies, more pictures than i could have ever imagined, driving aroudn with MY friends from MY grade that have their licenses (gosh, thats weird), growing up too fast, so many redbulls, cheerleading practices that were tiring and still lovely, going to the movies, chillen at hookah, jamming out to music in my bedroom with anna, trying on 17 outfits before i go out, curly hair, arguments and making up the next day, spending so much time with people that mean SO much to me. the hey's. the goodbye's.. they shouldnt have really been goodbyes, but more of "see you later" type of things, because that means they would never have to come to an end. the beginning of my western trip and the end and how much i had changed in the middle. but it hasnt really hit me just how different i am until right now. as much as i miss being carefree and i wish i could be like all of you, theres always a worry wart in a group of friends. and that happens to be me, but i dont care. because i love my life. i love my friends. i love my best friends more than anything. so here's to the summer that really taught me who i am.. and where i belong. and that life is for loving, not for hating & you have to live it up to the fullest. pack the most into each day. so thats what i did. hope everyones summer was as incredible as mine.. because even if yours is half as incredible as mine was, you're lucky.
summer 05, you had me at "hello". but now it's time to say goodbye. and i dont know what this year will bring, but i know that you've gotten me off to a wonderful start. so thank you for everything from the bottom of my heart. <3
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| western two, i love you |
[Monday,
July 25th, 05] |
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i hope this trip meant as much to all of you as it did to me. i'll make this short but sweet, in an effort to not waste peoples lives & to not make myself really sad..
from day one i knew that we had the best trip- i thought it would go by so slow that we'd get to think everything through while we were doing it. dave was so right when he said last night "you guys have alot on your minds & you might not know what to think about it". all i can say is that our trip was more than i can describe in words, but my heart will always have a place for you, western two 2005- so many memories, not enough time, and friendships that will last forever is what i ended up with, and that, completely satisfies me. I L O V E Y O U <3.
everyone else, im glad to be home & im looking forward to spending as much time as i can with all you guys before i have to leave for cali again, i'm glad to be back in civilization and my own bed- i missed you guys alot! call me or IM me soon, cause i want to talk to alllllll of you guys asap. love you
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[Wednesday,
June 22nd, 05] |
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today was unreal.
so many people actually wanted to say bye to me, and said they were sad to see me go. you guys, i cant tell you how much it means to me that you are gonna miss me cause honestly i dont know waht id do without you. just recently like going out every night and spending every night at a different place with you guys, truly honestly has shown me how much i love you. i'm gonna miss you guys alot, really i honestly am going to miss you beyond belieeeeef. hookah lounge, crazy sleepovers, stalkers, sneaking poeple over at three in the morning, fountain walk, chillen at peoples houses, watching the game, driving around, eating dairy queen, and most importantly just being with you guys- this summers been incredible so far, and i know that after western i will be IN LOVE with this summer. so maybe things will be different when i come back, or maybe they'll be exactly the same. but that is up to this trip to decide, and also something i'm looking forward to. sometimes you find love and closure in the strangest places. love to me is my best friend telling me that she's not going to miss anyone but me. love to me is when i call someone right before they go to sleep and they say "call me in the morning before you leave" and they dont care what time it is youre calling. love is also when one of your best friends shows up on a night that he's grounded just to say bye to you for five minutes. that is what love is to me, and ive found out the true meaning of it from you guys-each & every one of you.
( cant you see the wall you built for me? )
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[Monday,
June 20th, 05] |
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i just feel like updating because its 11:11 and i just got home from noah's. damn, tonight was funnnn. murph & i went up to fw at like 8ish or something and we chilled at the hookah lounge for a little with the boys.. then later on noah & jared came to meet us up =) it was fun, we all chilled with martin, robbie, dustin, pat, andy, lunchbox, mark, stacey, stephanie, evan, paul, jared, sean- god i dont evne think that's everyone haha we all smoked for awhile and then at like 10 me murphy jared & noah went back to noahs to smoke the new nargila he bought- we put it in an apple and tried to be cool, it was pretty shitty haha and we did like shotguns with hookah smoke, it was awesome. oh, and can i mention that i have an undying love for pizza rolls? we ate a whole fucking package. COOL GUYS. well, like i said- it's really unreal that i leave like 28 hours from now. i know thats still a whole day but tomorrow is gonna be spent at home packing & hanging out with my family cause i wont see them either.. even though they're annoying me to no fucking end. it's been real kids, hanging out with all you guys- the past like two weeks have been so amazing and no matter how much i say i didnt like it- i really loved it. honestly you guys are the best and i am so happy with all of my friends.. all i can say is- its been fucking real.
now i'm signing off for five weeks- stay out of trouble (yeah right), and im gonna miss you kids like none fucking otherrrr- last LOVE for a long, long time.
and this entry goes out to none other than james. because i love him and i was supposed to call him back about 10 minutes ago. and i will miss him alot =(.
and i'll leave you with this-
"but i'm nothing on my own
got to get that message home.
and i'm not gonna stand & wait
not gonna leave it until its much too late
on a platform i'm gonna stand & say
that i'm nothing on my own
and I LOVE YOU, PLEASE COME HOME."
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[Monday,
June 20th, 05] |
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well, just thought i'd leave one last update before i'm outta here. wow, it seems so unreal- we've been counting down to this since we first found out we were going- over a hundred days ago. and now theres two days left and i am left with the most bittersweet feeling ive ever felt. its sweet because im so excited to go spend time with people i love so so so much and the trip is gonna be amazing, but im bitter because theres people here that i love and dont want to leave. we'll see how things turn out. so anyways, i hope that everyone has such an amazing summer, and i want to hear all about them- make sure you guys write me while i'm on my trip (especially the first date cause its my birthday) and remember to send it like 5-7 days ahead of time so you make sure i get it =). if you write me i'll write you back! and i hope all the other westerns have fun too.. and west coast and tanuga and walden and tamakwa haha. up until yesterday i was like 'whatever, i'm going in 3 days' but then when i realized the first western actually left, it makes it feel so much more real. i cant wait- much love guys.
by july 2nd- (COUGH COUGH ITS MY BIRTHDAY COUGH COUGH SO SEND ME MAIL!)
lainey rubin
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[Sunday,
June 19th, 05] |
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every time i see that one person my feelings come back.. and i HATE THAT. more than anyyyything because i know theres nothing i can do about it. and that hurts the worst. i mean. its been like months and i still cant get over it.. honestly i cant no matter how hard i try. whatever, there's no use. i just have to wait til someone comes along and makes me feel like i did for him.
westerns in three days.. and i'm so fucking excited. i get to spend like weeeeeeeeks with people i love so much, its gonna be crazy and insane and full of inside jokes and memories that are gonna be impossible to forget. western two, i already love you. and just a sidenote- HEY SPECIALTY 04- YOU GOT SERRRRRVED. just thought i'd add that in, since i love t'04 like woah. <3
i think plans with stef & stac tonight? who knows. i'm goin to stefs house for the game then probably sleeping there, so call my cellllllllllll. LOVE
( the truth comes out when we're drunk. )
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[Saturday,
June 18th, 05] |
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wow. last night- for sure much needed & really fun
went to coney with my family, ehhh that was fine. then went to broses with farkus and then scotty came later. we were all really glad to see him, we missed him! haha then we all went on a walk to the pool, played 10 fingers which didnt successfully happen, used the kid catcher, the boys tried to get me and caroline to fight, broke a table, then we left haha we went back to broses and laid on the grass and got all wet. it was so fun though, like last night i wasnt worried about anything and it was the closure i really needed before i leave. it was just amazing, like old times when i didnt care. because i had nothing to be worried about and i was with three people who i love so much its incredible. so with that, i'm ready for this trip and this summer and anything it brings me. it's been amazing & i'm not completely sure i want to leave.. but i am completely sure that my trip will be amazing and i will have the best time ever. my trip leaves in four days, IM me if you want the address =). everyone have an amazing amazing amazing summer. I LOVE LIFE. end of story.
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[Friday,
June 17th, 05] |
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western is in FIVE days- holy fucking shit. Just talking about it gives me the chills- because I know that camp is what I live for , and love with all my heart regardless. and its true when i say that there is nothing i love more than camp. honestly. i love western two- more than life and i'm sure it will be more than that
stole this from my hottttty molly <3- "In basketball you shoot a ball through a hoop. In football you throw a ball down the field. In cheerleading you throw someone up twenty feet in the air with three people to catch her. Now which sounds most extreme?" thatsss right. ahh i love cheer.
- leave your name
- ill tell you what color you remind me of
- ill tell you what song you remind me of
- our favorite memory
- what season you remind me of.
much loooove.
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| cbroseXoX: im in an obnoxcious mood my mom told me. so she left me here alone. |
[Thursday,
June 16th, 05] |
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OKAY so i thought i could do it. i went almost a week, arent you guys proud??
its been really annoying that i couldnt update my lj. ooops. ive been spending alot of time cleaning my room up pretty much cause im leaving for camp and idont want to come back to all the shit i have piled up in here. i cleaned out my closet completely (shocker, for any of you who have EVER seen my closet, even at its cleanest) and it looks awesome =D im actually really proud of myself haha. so in more recent news, i had a sleepover with stacey & stephanie. we went to noahs house to smoke hookah before we wnet back to staceys, where we chilled & made up a dance to 'these boots are made for walkin' and it was the coolest tihng ive ever seen. i bought a new pink belly ring, its pretty cute. i saw leah at the mall yesterday. it was also pretty cute. last night matthew and i went out to dinner and a movie for the first time in awhile. he bought me pink roses, they were beautiful =). we saw mr & mrs smith, i really liked it. tonight im having a party, i told my mom that like 20 people were coming.. in reality i invited like 40. oops, i hope they dont all show up, and i know they wont so its all good haha. we're gonna watch the game and then chill. i have cheer in the morning, which makes me really happy since we started stunting and stuff =) i really love my squad and the new coach and everything about cheerleading. i really dont mind waking up at 9 in the monring to go to school during the summer (not.) lol WESTERN IS IN FUCKING SIX DAYS and im pummmmmped. besides the fact that i havent started to pack, i think things are going well. i'm gonna go get ready for tonight and stuff, i hope the stones winnnnn! YAY. haha okayyyy much love kids!<3
quotes by caroline:
cbroseXoX: what time hoe
cbroseXoX: bag
*****
cbroseXoX: and im like thank you captain dumbfuck
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cbroseXoX: cool lainey
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cbroseXoX: fucking stupid ass
heyyy cutiee: me? sorry.. lol
cbroseXoX: no me
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cbroseXoX: i have to shower
cbroseXoX: i smell
heyyy cutiee: lol well you should do that
cbroseXoX: ehh
cbroseXoX: its too far away
*****
cbroseXoX: im seriously screaming
cbroseXoX: not really.
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cbroseXoX: so were you..
cbroseXoX: cool caroline
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cbroseXoX: im going naked
cbroseXoX: be prepared
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cbroseXoX: i want the new bsb cd
heyyy cutiee: lol ME TOO
cbroseXoX: everyones making fun of me for wanting it
cbroseXoX: im like youre just jealous
UMM needless to say i love you? <3
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[Saturday,
June 11th, 05] |
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it's summer oh five.
and the first day, was amazing beyond belief. this is my last update before i leave for camp..
lunch after school with jamesy, then chillen with him for like the whole day. then i came home, showered, anna came and got me & we went to kellys. it was amazing to chill with all my SOPHOMORES (wow.) and just be able to be with everyone one last time before we all leave for the summer. i got to be with alot of my girls from western =D. WTWO baby! wouu eleven days. i'm sad that laura's leaving tomorrow for springhill- i don't know what i'm gonna do without her before i leave for my trip honestly. i love you boo<3. here's what i love about summer, so far & forever..
- pool parties til late at night
- SMORES ohh gosh
- mase's grad party =D
- western two oh five<3
- meeting new people
- partying til the sun comes up
- campinggg
- josh & max freestylin
- taking so many pictures
- getting tan to the maxxx
- summer songs
- packing for camp & then coming home
- california, and being with my sisters
- my new cell phone
- belly button rings
- driving around not caring about anything
and last but not least
what i love the most about summer is that everyone changes. everyone's happy and nothing matters anymore. no school, no curfews, no fucking teachers, no parents bitching. i love that we can change for the summer, and go back to school the same way things started, or maybe even completely different, but at the same time, love who everyone has become. i cant wait for this summer to really hit me. i feel like this is gonna be MY summer.. the one where i change the most. & i'm fucking excited.
OH & birthday party next week for me (even though my bdays not til july 2) cause i'm leaving for camp. leave some suggestions if you have any ideas of what i should do. LOVE for summer 05
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[Thursday,
June 9th, 05] |
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"life is an ugly, awful place not to have a best friend."
i love mine so much, i'm so incredibly lucky <3
ummm okay so it still hasnt hit me that school is over tomorrow. and these half days, they've been taking me by surprise really. its like i come home and have no idea whats going on, and then someone calls and asks for plans and i love it. its been so fun, i hope the summer is like this =). so tonight i was considering having my very first pistons party cause im sweet like that. but i figured, no wait til next week and maybe it can be like a party/ my birthday party. we'll see, i'll have to talk to nance about that one. hmm so yeah i gotta go get ready for dinner with my family- WOW that should be a blast.. then i'm gonna come home later and watch the game & maybe laura will sleep over. TOMORROW IS MY LAST FUCKING DAY OF BEING A FRESHMAN. i cannot tell you how good it feels to say that.
oh & yesterday i said i was in love with this book-
HONESTLY. i think this describes my feelings right now more than ANYTHING.
Back in the beginning, when P.E. was my life and nothing had happened between us yet, it wasn't like this. Even two months ago when I'd spent my afternoons just driving around with him, listening to the radio under a bright blue fall sky, there hadn't been these issues, these awkward silences. We didn't talk or laugh as much anymore, or even just play around. Everything had narrowed to just going to his house, parking out by the lake and battling for territory while aruging about trust and expectations. It was like dealing with my mother.
"Look," he said, and he slid his arm around my waist, pulling me close against him. "You've just got to trust me, okay?"
"I know," I said, and it was easy to believe him as we lay there in the early winter darkness, him kissing my forehead, my bare feet entwined with his. It all felt good, real good, and this is what people did; all people, except me. I felt closer than ever to telling him I loved him, but I bit it back. He had to say it first, and I willed him to just as I'd willed him to come over to me in P.E. where it all began.
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[Wednesday,
June 8th, 05] |
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wow okay. so i love that i'm into this amazing book called "someone like you". any girls, honestly i think you should read it. it's definitely not a guys book, but it just completely sucked me in.i love how im so completely at ease and calm with everything right now. school's almost over & it still hasnt hit me. max & i talked last night about how yeah, theres a couple days left but we just dont feel it. i mean as much as i cant wait for summer.. i just know things are going to be different this year. and yeah this summers gonna be amazing with western and all, but i'm just curious to see what the summer brings me =). i got a new phone today, it was lovelyyyy. me sherm mel murph & laur went to hercs today and sat by pat andy dustin & mark. then me murph & laur went to shermans and just laid out. i for sure looked mexican for a good part of this afternoon. again tomorrow guys? yeah, i think so. who knew you could TAN in michigan without a tanning booth? and yes i love the nice weather, not to complain- but its getting to be way toooo hot outside. OH well. i'll take this over snow any day. now i'm on the phone with my jamesy so it's time for me to gooo, much love kids. <3
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[Tuesday,
June 7th, 05] |
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hmmm.
so many thoughts running through my head. sorry for the short pointless updates, just though i should let you guys know i`m still alive. i`ve been buried in books for the past five days, literally i wake up in the morning in piles of my homework and notecards and books. finals are killing me. math was today, not bad at all, or so i hope- i got my nails done with my momma after school, then came home and have been studying since i got home.
( now i think i'm ready to bust a move )
173 notecards for bio- i have my two hardest finals on the same day. i`m so not ready. OKAY so lesson learned, mayyyybe i should start paying attention. =/. well james just called, i think either he`s gonna come over to study bio for a little bit or we`re gonna go out for ice cream and study. we`ll see. right now i`m talking to my favorite ev ev about chip & pepper and how i saw them on tv and i thought of him! haha HALF DAYS START TOMORROW. then school will be out at the end of the week, i cannot waittttt. happy almost summer guys. LOVE
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[Monday,
June 6th, 05] |
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quick update.
4 days left til this shit is over. and i cant wait honestly
right now i'm bored so i'm gonna go study for bio & honors english, and start packing for western. for some reason i keep thinking that if i start packing then it will come sooner. oh well, only sixteen days left til i leave. =). WESTERN TWO, I LOVE YOU. creative, i know. anyone on my trip, are we making sweatshirts/sweatpants? let me know. haha
i didnt go to school today. im coughing like a bitch. ONCE again thank you. what are they gonna do now? put me on another inhaler. i dont think so, mister. well anyways, i'll go make some calls and see what everyones doing. happy last monday of the school year =P. LOVE
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[Sunday,
June 5th, 05] |
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summer, is in five days.
not six, seven, forty, or any number.
only five. its in the single digits.
and honestly, i cannot wait.
SUMMER OH FIVE. where my heart belongs seriously. i cant wait until i can drop everything and go wherever i want whenever i want and sleep as long as i want and just do wahtever. and i cant wait for camp either cause i love my trip more than life. UGH GOD. and most of all, i cant wait til i can stop talking about how much i want my summer to come. these last few days are the WORSTTTT. i leave in seventeen days though. i'm curious to see what happens until then. well right now i think i'm gonna go eat breakfast and study. then at liek 4:30 i'm going out to coney with laur && maybe some other people, then leaving for graduation at 5:30. <3
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[Saturday,
June 4th, 05] |
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today was an interesting day i guess you could say
school sucked, what else is new. i chilled with christine during third hour which was sweet =). then after school i came home and chilled all day, showered, cleaned my room, played with coco. typical. then i went to staceys at like 6 and chilled w/ her and alex for a little. then we walked to the park, met up with jordan, ben & joey. and then later on zach came to staceys. then at like 10:30 ish or so i left and went to wendys with allie & becca, definitely love them =D. they're so cute. we met these kids who were going to inferno at wendys haha they're really cool- from some random far away place.
i love how ten minutes out of your day can make everything bad that happened seem completely wonderful. now i'm not about to start again, and it's almost summer.. this is just like last year. i remember it perfectly, the last week of my eighth grade year, just waiting for the summer and camp, but still knowing i had to leave everything behind. this year i'm truly honestly gonna be sad to leave all these people behind. these people that i love with all my heart. but at the same time i'll be spending an amazing 4 1/2 ish weeks with incredible people that i also love with all my heart. its just a bittersweet feeling.
and summer flings, well lets just say ive already started to have my share of summer flings. and i like how things are going. i know it sounds bad but i feel like i'm so much more carefree already, like all my stress is lifted off my shoulders completely.
SUMMER OH FIVE give me all that you've got.
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[Thursday,
June 2nd, 05] |
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my birthday is a month from today. i think we should all be excited!
in more reeeecent news.
today is thursday. i love thursdays. late starts are officially my hero =). talking to james about driving and reading thea's livejournal seeing how much she loves it just makes me so happy for both of them, i love them =). lauren officially makes me smile. whenever i see her in the halls, i just get happy, cause shes such an amazing person =D. melanie tripped today walking to the car, it was the highlight of my day. jared got pushed into the center of a big group of girls singing 'gigalo' at lunch yesterday. it was pretty damn hilarious. laura morgan & i had a good dance session during sixth hour today because well, we did nothing and mr t was on the verge of shooting us. YEAH we talked with my loverrrr jason for like a good 45 minutes haha it was awesome. then i came home, slept (which was niiice) then went to max & ermas with my family. yes i drove cause im cool like that haha then we went to buy me some bathing suits at marshalls haha and i saw JAYME & LEANN. love those girls, oy, they're freaking adorable. okay so yeah, then i came home. talked to a bunch of people and now im about to go to sleep. and its only 10:20. what an early night!
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[Wednesday,
June 1st, 05] |
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You know, my life could be a story book.
And in this book, there would be colorful pictures.. of all the days of my life and the stories that go along with them. It would be more of a novel. But even if I was the only person who ever read it, I'd read it over and over again. Day by day. Adding on the days and their memories as they go along. It has occured to me now that I've had the time to actually sit and think for awhile without being called/texted/IMed/doing homework or just being bothered.
Here's the main part of my story- what it would be based around.
( my life as we know it. )
I've realized that my freshman year's almost over. It's gone by so fast. If it makes any sense- it feels like everythings been moving SO fast and I've just been standing still. But I couldn't be happier with the way things have turned out for me. I learned so many things from different people, I've made so many new friends. I've done so many things I never thought I would. And I love who I am. FINALLY I'm happy with the way things are. I love who my friends are and have become, I love how no matter what, my best friends have stuck by me. I love my boy situation. You know that you really care about someone when just being with them for even five minutes of your crazy day can make you smile and be the one thing you remember about that day. I'm done rambling now, just everyone- take a minute or two for yourself & clear your conscience. It's the end of the year, eight days and counting left until I get out of the hell hole. Way too fast? or way too slow? I don't know what to think about the past year of my life. Except I can sum it up by saying " I feel amazing. "
much love <3
OH AND PS. EVVVVVV IS SWEET. he brought me and laura slurpees. so that automatically makes him cool- AND he is a genius. literally, i'm jealous. we have some interesting phone conversations. and i cant wait till he sees me play at graduation and i get teased for the rest of my life. =D.
PPS. Alexandra Hart Slater i love you. and we are gonna have an AMAZING weekend. I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH DUDE ITS INSAAAAANE. dream weekend
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WOW. okay so last night was amazing.
it was me, steph, sar, linz, shreves, matthew, seth, gilbert, jason & dan rosenbaum. so i get home from dayna's bat mitzvah & go pack. then at like 11:45 matt picks me up and we go to stephs. as soon as we get there jason & sarah are out the door to go buy red bull haha so me & matt went and chilled with stephy in the library- definitely looked at myspaces. wow it was fucking hilarious. and the poop man showed himself for the first time. matthew & i didnt get very much alone time though so he wasnt very happy =(. anyways the boys left at like 2:45 & then we all chilled. linz & i had a very good discussion about cheerleading, til about 6:45 in the morning literally. we watched the sun rise, it was awesome =). i woke up at stefs this morning & ate french toast with the girlies. then my daddy picked me up & my family went out to breakfast. matt called while i was on my way & my parents are like "OH invite matthew to breakfast with us" so sure enough, he came and we all ate =D then my baby & i went flower/plant shopping haha long story. but anyways after that we went to st marys. we met up with jon, blair, amanda & scott. so we hung out with them the whoel time and it was really fun. we all went on like every ride pretty much and it was just really really fun =)then after all that, matt & i went to sleven and got slurpees haha and then we went to my house. we watched tv for awhile and then he left. i showered & now im about to call james. he informed me that we're going out for ice cream tomorrow night. i love him so much. only a best friend says something like that- on the first day he gets his license he's taking me out for ice cream. awww - and whitney my love,i hope you had an amazing birthday- you're such a doll and you know i love you so fucking much. you're amazinggg<3
OKAY so theres the end of my rambling. hope everyone had an awesome memorial day weekend cause i did haha<3
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